Live for today, so you can have memories for tomorrow!!

You know those conversations that you have where the whole group is reminiscing about old times and you constantly hear Awhhh I miss that. It seems like lately that is always happening to me. Or I just think about something and I really do miss so many things that I took for granted.

I remember being little and fearless and all you wanted to do was have fun! When you could run for what seemed like ever without getting tired. When you would fall and skin your knee and jump back up because it was no big deal. when riding your bike was an everyday thing. When it didn't matter that you weren't wearing make up or your hair wasn't done. When everything was a game and you didn't have a care in the world. When you used your imagination and didn't care that people were watching. When thinking a boy was cute was a BIG deal. I remember when playing was more important that eating. When it didn't bother you that your hands were dirty. When all you wanted to do was be big! When you just couldn't wait to grow up.

I remember being in Jr. High and just trying to figure out what was going on. When you started worrying about what you wore or your hair. When you first put on make up and it was absolutely horrendous. When boys became hott not cute. When you first held a guys hand, but were way to scared to actually kiss. When being "cool" became important. When you took a look at who your friends were. When you learned about gossip. When you learned about true friends. when EVERYTHING was the end of the world. When you first ditched class. When you start learning what the bad words actually are, and what things are. When you had to buy your first bra(even though I didn't have boobs, everyone else just had one, so I wanted one). When you get the puberty lesson and you just giggle about it. When the bowling alley was cool. When a tiny bit of rebellion was huge and the BIGGEST secret ever. When you talked about "When we are in high school.". When all you wanted was to go to high school.

I remember being in High School thinking it was so cool. When Senior boys were the hottest thing ever. When boys were sexy instead of hott. When you thought you were awesome. When you realized you weren't. When holding hands turned into kissing and kissing turned into making out and making out turned into.... you get the point. When everything was still a big deal. When your style changed every few months. When cruising was cool. When you took all night to get ready and could only go out for an hour.When you learned how damaging rumors are. When you learned about mean girls. When you learned about revenge and grudges.When you learned about high school parties. When you learned how bad of a driver you actually are. When you had a lunch routine and could eat ridiculous amounts of food in a short time. When you learned how to eat and drive. When everything was an inside joke.When you only liked boys from other schools. When you had a boy in every other school. When your shirt got lower and your pants got tighter.... at least once. when you just wanted to be a senior. When you got denied by the one guy you actually liked. When you cried over a guy and watched movies and ate ice cream with that one true friend that will always be there. When you go do completely ridiculous stuff just because. When you ditched school and some how never got caught( because we didn't learn in Jr. high).When you really didn't learn anything. When you all the fast food restaurants in town knew what you were getting. When you would buy hot n spicy's with pennies. When all you wanted to do was graduate.

And... now I look back and wonder what my hurry was! I wish I would have looked at things different and enjoyed every single little thing instead of looking forward only to growing up. Because I was so set on the future I didn't enjoy the present as much as I should have I didn't appreciate all the little things. When I look back and reminisce in 10 years I want to be able to say I enjoyed that as much as I could have, and I did everything I could to make that day amazing!! No matter what you will always remember things and miss things but if you make everything the best you can be completely happy looking back but knowing you are living everyday to its fullest and not trying to live for what could come. If you live for today the better memories you will have tomorrow!!! Don't live in the past wanting to go back but sometimes it is good to think back and remember but you cant live in the future just waiting for things you what. Do what you can now and make absolutely every moment something worth remembering.

But..... I would like to say that there are certain people that have made soo many amazing memories for me. That I always lived in the moment with.
I could go on for days about all the stories and amazing times that I have had with my Family. Each member of my family I have at least one story that immediately comes to mind. I could write a book on my crazy family that I absolutely love!! I know my family isn't normal but they are fun and those make the best times. There are way too many memories to even put in here, but they are all entertaining.
Then there are my friends that will always bring up some of the times I have laughed the hardest and had the most fun. I might not have the most friends in the world because of some of the things I learned but those friends that I do have really do mean something and I will never ever forget them.
There are always those random people who have come through and you don't have many memories but you still do and they are amazing. It is the little things that make life sooo enjoy everything because when you wake up tomorrow its not always there.


So... Just Love Me and live for today(even though I contradict myself because this post is completely about the past).

Alyssa

What YOU think does matter!!

I often have conversations with people that consist of:

What are you doing

_____________(Whatever I'm doing)!! What about you?

Nothing I'm Bored.

And I would just like to express how much this bothers me!! There is honestly no reason for anyone to be bored ever!! I remember learning this at a pretty young age. I used to always complain to my mom about how bored I was and how there was nothing to do, and she would simply respond with " I know lots of things you could do, you can start with cleaning the Kitchen." . 

Once I finally learned that if I entertained myself and stopped saying I was bored I didn't have to clean quite so much. That is what started my ability to be easily entertained. There is always a start but after talking to my Grandpa it finally completely clicked. My grandpa always had these profound ideas. I don't know if he actually meant this but sometimes I interpret things differently. I remember him talking to me about how attitude is everything. Its not what happens to you its how you respond.(I'll probably do a blog about that another time) Another thing I remember him talking about was that there was NEVER a reason to be bored when the is sooo much to do. But me being me I combined the two. 

So finally after years of practiced I have developed this attitude of always being entertained no matter what. I am never bored no matter what I am doing. It is awesome. Even if I am doing absolutely nothing I tell myself I am having fun, and here's the catch, if I think I'm having fun, then I obviously am. Everything really is up to you and how you respond. So taking all the lessons I have learned I'm completely content with anything I am doing.  I can be in a room and just think and be completely happy. I can be sitting at work and be entertained by the littlest thing. Or I can be at a wrestling tournament with a handful of change and entertain myself as well as two wrestling teams. I can have a bag of popcorn in a crowd and drive everyone else crazy and completely embarrass my parents but be having an absolute ball! So in reality its not actually what you are doing, its what you YOU think you're doing and how YOU think you're doing it!!!My life might not be eventful or have the greatest stories or anything like that, But I will tell you what I love my life and everything I do makes me happy, And that's what I think so that's what it is! So do yourself a favor DON'T BE BORED!!! There is no reason!! There is always something to do!! Whether or not you want to is a different story but again that is all about your attitude. Change it!! Be entertained, because if you can't even entertain yourself how do you expect to entertain anyone else!!! And even if you don't entertain anyone else at least you can entertain yourself and don't have to rely on someone else to do the job!! My brothers always make fun of me because I will say something that I think is hilarious and just crack up, and say "that was funny, I'm funny.". Which is usually followed by an "Alyssa, Your not funny!!" But they are always laughing!! So in one way or another I'm entertained and as much as they, say they aren't they really are!! But anyways, back to entertaining yourself  just tell yourself your having fun, and you obviously are! Last night I watched T.V. in Spanish for like an hour and just made up what was going on! To the majority of the world that sounds SUUUPER lame. But because I thought it was a blast it was!! In all honesty if you have the right attitude you can do ANYTHING and have a blast!!! So please do!! There is absolutely no reason not to have fun or atleast in enjoy everything you do! 

So Just love me, Don't bore me!!! If you think you're having fun! You are!! Remember that!

Alyssa!

Just Jump!!

I was thinking today about my job. And I was contemplating all the things you see or hear everyday just because of where you are. I then remembered one day when I was life guarding, with one kid in the pool. I remember having such a bad attitude because I had to go out for one girl. But as always I became very easily entertained with it. I noticed how cautious she was and when she was getting and she got in little by little not splashing at all and barely making any ripples. Although she still did seeing it is impossible not to. She was just sitting on the stairs, when another kid came. The difference in attitude was huge. He was not cautious at all, instead he ran and did a cannonball in the deep end. Normally I would have yelled at him, but I was super caught up in what was happening. It was such a contrast from the little girl you didn't even make a splash to this little boy who made this huge impact and sent ripples all the way across the pool. It made me think how much that actually related to life.You can always go through life jumping in and making a splash!! You can affect so many people without even realizing it through one action. Just like the little boy he didn't see how far his ripples spread, but looking from the outside I saw that they affected the whole pool. You are always going to affect something just because your there, like the little girl, just by being there you affect someone or something, no matter how hard you try not to. But in my opinion why not jump in and make a splash and make as big of an effect on the world as you can. She how far your ripples will go. You may not see how many people or things you affect, but there are other people that will. No matter what you affect people!! Just make sure its how you would want to!!! Do that perfect dive don't just flop...
Its been so long I dont even remember how I end this... Ohh well I think it was something to the effect of .... Sooo Just love me... and remember to always make that big splash!!
-Alyssa