Take a step back and laugh!

"I swear I'm going senile. I mean when you are sitting next to the toilet at 2 A.M. coughing so much your throwing up, crying over a guy that doesn't even like you, talking to yourself, and oh to make it even better cleaning the toilet and floor. Yeah, I think that classifies as going crazy."
-Alyssa (Me)


When you are in a situation it seems so much worse than it actually is, well usually. It just seems awful and you are freaking out and don't know what to do. Then you look back on it the next day, and it's so stupid and you can't believe you were so upset over the situation.When you think about it now, you just can't help but laugh about how dumb it was. I have those moments all the time. I think that I'm going to die and it's the end of the world, but when I look back I just think it's hilarious. For most people it takes a lot longer to laugh it off, but me, sometimes I laugh about it right after it happens. As soon as I can think straight, it's pretty comical! But, before you know it, it's something else. Well atleast for me it's that way. 


For these kind of things I say it's better to just laugh at yourself and make the experience funny. And, why not tell other people to make them laugh. Why not share those times where you just felt so stupid!
I decided that I'm going to share some of my stupid stories or the stupid stories I have heard!


Well I just asked my little brother Jedde if he has heard any stupid stories, and he looked at me and said "your whole life".


One day Shem walked in the kitchen and told us about his night. A rundown of the story was that he woke up in the middle of the night and was really thirty. We was trying to figure out where a cup was in his room and when he couldn't find one decided that his wrestling shoe would be a great cup. So he walked into the bathroom and was going to fill it up. Right then he realized how bad of an idea that was. I can barely stand the smell of his shoes, let alone think about drinking out of them.


At state wrestling I was sharing a bed with Shelby. All through the night she kept touching my face and I was getting so annoyed. Finally after about the 15th time I pushed her hand off my face. She turns to me and says "geez I'm just touching you". I was so annoyed with her. When she woke up the next morning and I told her and we couldn't stop laughing. Se didn't remember any of it. She told me about how in the middle of the night she was getting up to go to the bathroom and when she got up she couldn't remember what she was doing and went back to bed. About 10 minutes later the same thing happened, finally she remembered what she was going to do.


Well of course my feeling crazy sitting next to the toilet story that happened this week. I think you gist of that one.


As all of the wrestlerettes know, I have this thing about going to the bathroom. So on many occasions I have almost pee'd my pants. On our way to state, we stopped in flagstaff and I had to pee so bad! We were trying to get to the mall and I couldn't hold it anymore. Of course everyone was making water noises and trying to make me laugh. It was horrible, I had to pee so bad I wanted to cry.. When we finally got to the mall, I was running in with my belt and pants undone to go to the bathroom. And, of course there was a wrestling team there, so you can imagine how dumb I looked.


The other night my mom was in the kitchen in her underwear and didn't realize Shem had a friend over. Then, in walks Shem and Duncan. So not knowing what to do, she hides under the table until they left.


There are the countless number of times when my brothers would make fun of me and I wouldn't get it so i would get so embarrassed and cry.
To this day they have a few favorites.
They were all telling jokes at dinner, and of course they were blonde jokes but the blonde was named Alyssa. Then Kalob says I walked into the kitchen one night and Alyssa was sitting at the table and I said it's chilly outside and Alyssa ran out with a bowl and a spoon. My whole family was laughing but I didn't get it so i asked "And then what happened?". 
One day I was at the pool with my brother and he asked me if I was hungry and if I was to get something out of the freezer. So I went and got something out of the freezer and I was intently reading the instructions and I looked at him and asked "Is it frozen or thawed?" He started laughing and I told him a was serious. He kept laughing and laughing and looks at me and says ohh you are serious. He asked me where I got it and I said the freezer and I was just like Kalob please just tell me if it's frozen or thawed i really don't know. He finally told me that is was frozen not thawed.
Kalob-Luke, why don't you get an enema?
Me-Whats an emeno?
Hahahahahah
Seth-Alyssa I'm sure you would like a peppermint one.
Me-What is it?
Hahaha
Luke-Why don't you look it up.
Me- Ohkay I did, But all it said was poop like a pro.
They all laughed and still make fun of me.

My freshman year I had this challenge to get 20 wrestlers number at a tournament. So I would ask guys and I'd get there number. It was really easy, until I asked this one guy and he said no. I figured it was because our teams just wrestled. I was still freaking out about it and stressing. The next day I was still upset about it. For some reason I happened to be sitting next to the Queen Creek team ( The guy that rejected me was on this team). I decided to ask them if they knew my cousin Daniel. They did, but then they said wait wait if you're related to Daniel then your related to Trace. I was like Trace who I don't know anybody named Trace. They asked me If I was a Bowman, and I said yes. They all started laughing and said Oh my gosh you hit on your cousin. It turned out Trace is Trace Bowman and Trace Bowman is who I happened to have hit on. Small world Huh. I was horrified, and my parents thought it was funny especially because they were sitting with his parents in the stands. I had no idea that he was my cousin, but that didn't stop my parents from telling this story. This one took me awhile to get over.

There are always those moments where you are alone talking to yourself and someone walks in the room!
Or the infamous getting caught singing and dancing in your underwear.


I asked Shem what would he feel stupid about if someone saw him. These were his responses:
-Smelling my armpits.
-Trying to pretend I didn't fart
-Getting rejected by a girl.
-Practicing pick up lines in the mirror.
-Staring at a hott girl.
-Better yet, staring at a hott girl's butt.
Then he started laughing and said if I ever did any of those things.

There are so many more stories, and everyone has there own. I'm sure that you can think of those time where you realized how dumb you looked. Or, when you think back to a situation and you just feel stupid for doing that. But, I'd have to say these moments are part of life. I like them, they really are fun to look back and laugh at!


All in All we all have things that we feel really dumb about or think it's the end of the world, because of embarrassment. Believe me it's not I've done tons of stupid thing and I'm just fine, well sort of! So step back from your stupid moments and just laugh and tell someone else so they can laugh! I think one of the best lessons in life is to learn to laugh at yourself. If you can make better of an embarrassing situation then you can make better of anything. 
So Just Love Me, and Laugh at yourself, I do!
-Alyssa

Did you see that?

"Oh my goodness you are just the cutest thing ever. I've been watching you and you are so funny and completely adorable."
-A Random lady that came up to me.



Isn't it funny how you never know who is watching you, and sometimes kind of embarrassing. Especially when someone comes and tells you they have been watching you, and you just have that moment when you think to yourself Ooh No I wonder what they saw. This got me thinking, well why do I even do things if I'd be embarrassed if people saw me. Well most likely because I won't be embarrassed. I think Dr. Seuss says it best "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." Now that I have decided to be who I am, it doesn't matter who sees because it is all me, and that's what matters. It used to really freak me out how many random people would come talk to me and tell me how entertaining I am. I thought it was really creepy, and my parents thought it was hilarious.But I have accepted that people watch you, and it's kind of flattering! If I can make someone smile by just doing what I do, then that's an accomplishment!


It also made me think about how many people I am entertained by. It's completely human nature to be fascinated by what other people do! And to be honest, it's actually a lot funnier when they don't know you are paying attention. The other night, when we were at our hotel, there was this guy in the pool and we kind of just ignored him. Then  we noticed that whenever he would get out of the pool he would suck his stomach in to make himself look skinnier. I couldn't help but laugh because it just made him look ridiculous. He was completely oblivious that we all noticed this which made it all the more funny. How often do we watch what other people do, pretty much all the time. We observe so many things and it's the things other people do that we pick up on. Sometimes it's absolutely hilarious and it makes you laugh or smile. Or maybe it's something completely embarrassing that nobody would want you to see and you just don't say anything. I don't know how many times I caught someone picking there nose or a wedgie, then looking to make sure no one saw. You get where they are coming from because everyone has been seen doing something they'd rather not share. We have all tripped in front of people or just done something stupid! I know I have, I'm probably one of the most clumsy people ever. I have probably the most embarrassing stories. The difference is that I don't get embarrassed anymore, I try to make the most out of it. I am who I am and it's the little things and experiences that make life.. well life!


How boring would life be if we didn't have a laugh at what someone else has done. The funny stories about what has happened to you in front of people, or something you have observed. Honestly think about what makes you laugh during the day it's usually other people!Watching other people is fascinating trying to figure out what they do. Even laughing at their expense, I know it's horrible to say, but we all do it. We pay attention to things other people say and do constantly. I'm always catching myself watching someone and saying " did they really just say that?" or "I cannot believe they did that". We all do it, even if we don't consciously realize it.

So when you do something rather embarrassing think of it as making someone else laugh and giving them something to smile about. Even when you don't think people are watching they are... so my best advice is be who you are! It's entertaining to the rest of the world!!
So Just Love Me and well you can laugh at me too!
-Alyssa

Finding Myself.

There is this random wrestler jumping rope and warming up. 

Shelby- What would you do if I asked him to use his jump rope?

Me-Oh My gosh Shelby do it. I'll give you $20.

Shelby-Oh my gosh I can't.

"Hey! Uhhh can I use your jump rope?"

"Yeah I guess. But it's  not really a jump rope, it's an elastic band."

He hands her the jump rope and she starts jumping.

Why do we do things like this? It really made me think. Is it to get attention? Is it to just be funny? I would have to say probably both. I do so many completely pointless things, I would have to admit that it's to get attention and some laughs. I was talking to someone who pointed some things out to me that I never really thought about, things about me. Some how we got on the subject of how I put up this front of a dumb superficial blonde. I put on an act and few people know the real me. He told me, "People will take advantage of the ditzy blonde much more than they do the confident, intelligent one." he's right. Why can't I be the real me, maybe it's because I'm scared. Scared of getting hurt, scared of putting my real self out there. Another thing that he said had a big impact, "You try to protect yourself by making yourself stand out?". I know, it doesn't make any sense at all. Why do I need attention.  Maybe I don't, maybe I'm trying to live up to other peoples expectations of me. Expectations that aren't even really there. Maybe it's because I want to hear that I'm worth something to someone. Acting like this and always wanting attention hasn't gotten me anywhere. Well maybe in some trouble, maybe even resented. He also told me " It's up to you whether you'd rather have people respect you for being confident and smart and have some people think you were arrogant. Or have just a few people respect you and a whole lotta people think you're a joke." I want to be the real me. I'm tired of putting on an act and being someone I'm not. I don't need the attention. I have just always relied on having it. I've been putting on this dumb blonde act for so long, it has done anything but hurt me. I have been relying on my looks so much, that my personality didn't even matter. Your personality is what makes you well you. I haven't been me, I've been fake. I'm not that dumb, superficial, blonde that only relies on her looks not her abilities, I'm Alyssa Bowman The confident, intelligent one that is talented and doesn't need looks to get her somewhere. I have overcome a lot of things from my past. But now my challenge is to be real and stop pretending. I was told " We are what we repeatedly do" and I'm finally going to repeatedly be me. It doesn't matter what people have to say, it only matters how I see myself and how I can make myself better. I've listened to what people have had to say about what I've done, but I have the say on what I'm going to do.I don't want to look back and remember all the stupid things I have done, I want to look back and see what I've accomplished. I want to be the real me. Thank goodness I've finally realized what's really important and that it's not too late. And Thank you Kory!!!

So Just Love Me! The Real Me!!!

-Alyssa ( The Smart Intelligent One)